Friday, November 19, 2021

 Some inspiration for the classroom. This is how my day went yesterday (11/18/21).

 Hope in the Time of Covid

As a teacher, I’ve been having some unsettling issues with some of my students lately. I can see the apathy and un-engaged attitudes, and it got me thinking about my own attitude and my own struggle to “keep it together,” and I decided something needed to change.

So, yesterday’s bell-ringer activity was for students to list 5 things that come to mind when they think of the word, “THANKFULNESS.” When it came time to talk about their responses, I let them know that I purposely had not used Thanksgiving, because I wasn’t looking for answers like turkey, and mashed potatoes, or other things like that, but to think about what it means to be thankful. A few students responded with words like gratefulness, and kindness, and other words you might think of, and then I told them my own little story.

I had been listening to the radio the day after Halloween, and two of my favorite stations were playing nothing but Christmas music. Already. One day after Halloween. It made me angry and I screamed in the car, “REALLY??? It isn’t even Thanksgiving yet!” Then, a couple weekends later, there wasn’t anything good on TV, so I switched to my “Hallmark Movies” channel where one of my favorite writers’ Christmas series of movies was on featuring Mrs. Miracle movies. I was, however, disappointed because I preferred a different actor in the lead role (the same woman who plays Ray Romano’s mother in Everyone Loves Raymond), but I decided to give the move a chance anyway.

I was really ready to not like this movie. As I was watching, though, I found myself getting caught up in the story, and starting to root for Mrs. Miracle, hoping that the family facing problems would begin to start working things out. And then it dawned on me. I wanted the story to have that traditional happy ending where everything works ou, because I wanted to have HOPE for a better future for them. As I thought about it, I realized that since the Pandemic started, I had lost my joy and my hope that the future could be better, and that there could be happiness once again in the world.

Then I told my students that I remembered the title of a book that I had read way back in the 1980s called, “Happiness is a Choice.” That’s what I’ve been missing. That’s why the holidays are so important to me this year. I need something to reignite the feeling of hope, and joy, and love, and the belief that things can be better, and that we don’t have to stay in a world of anger and hatred. But it has to start with me, and with each and every one of us believing that hope and joy are important, and that we can, indeed, be happy once again.

Now that doesn’t mean, I told them, that every day and every moment will be brilliant, and that we won’t occasionally have horrendous things happen, but it’s a starting place – a place to begin, once again, to believe that HOPE and JOY are possible.

At the end of one of my tougher classes, the most incredible thing happened. A student who has been struggling with massive amounts of just plain tragic events in their life and who has been being very vocally angry in class to the point of disruptive behavior asked for their make-up work and apologized for recent classroom outbursts. I wanted to cry.

The conversation continued, and this student seemed genuinely, sincerely changed. I think the change for them had started before they had even come in the door, and I don’t know that anything I said had anything to do with this change, but it could be that the atmosphere of the class was different. My heart was so filled with hope for them and their new attitude, and I hope it is the new beginning they are looking for. It’s a start, anyway. I will just keep hoping, trying to make positive choices for more happiness and joy in every way I can.